Control Issues

"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm, Father You are King over the flood, I will be still, know you are God"

My wonderful cousin emailed me this line from a worship song. It has such soothing properties for me everytime I glance at it. Over the last week, I have had a couple of difficult days at work just due to the nature of this job. I also have had less time to put my feet up and just "get my ducks in a row." I am one who needs to have my surroudings organized, which organizes my mind, which in turn allows for my day to run smoothly. Thus when any of the three mentioned above is off, I begin to have control issues. When the reins are loose, I start yanking around wildly to try to regain control. However these triggers also seem to happen when my spiritual life is lacking. And as mentioned in a previous post, my life is most simplified when I have given my concerns and daily stresses over to God. When I no longer have to worry, then simplification can continue to take root.

Thus during this time, I realize that I need to let go and allow simplicity to regain its foothold. For me this can occur by several different ways. Writing in my journal to release the overabundance that has taken root in my mind, reading in my Bible to reconnect to my goals and to feed my spiritual hole, engaging in physical exercise to use my muscles and relieve tension, sleeping or physically resting to ease all of my senses from over exertion-any and all of these allow me to release and reconnect to what is truly important. My simplicity comes from the realization of what is truly necessary for my daily survival and when I return to that my own need for control drops as I recognize all that I truly have. Things seem out of control when we see what is lacking where as when we focus on all that we have we recognize the simple blessings that are present in our daily lives. So self, forget control and focus on the grace of simplicity.....