Over the course of the last week I have been feeling stressed pertaining to my grad program through a variety of situations: not feeling like this program is exactly what I expected it to be, worried about finances, having more than usual due in these middle weeks of the term, feeling like I blew a group presentation last week, thinking about being out of town so much, finding it hard to meet new people.
Thus I found it ironic and refreshing that the day after I was the most stressed, lots of little things came together to rejuvenate me-something that I took to be reminders from God that He really will provide for all of my needs. Someone randomly sent me $20 in the mail which reinforced that the money will be provided for my education and living needs, I had the opportunity to rewrite a critique and scored much better on it the second time around, the high school I used to sub for had called which reminded me that come December I will have work, I did very well on an assignment for another class, I discovered that it really may be possible to transform this grad program into something that will better fit my needs, I had a bonding conversation on the phone with one of my friends, and discovered that another acquaintance from my undergrad now lives in my general neighborhood. And now I am here again at my granny's where I have spent the weekend doing my reading, writing my paper that is due this week, scheduling meetings and the visit from my out of town friend this next week, and going with her to this fabulous concert at the church last night. The concert additionally reinforced that all we have to do is trust and believe in the Lord and the greatest gift He gave. We may not feel that life is always peachy but even in the negative moments, there is hope that tomorrow will be better.
This morning upon waking up I took some pictures of the overcast morning with the trees against it. In taking a study break yesterday, I went for a walk around the lakes and listened to the sounds of nature. The squirrels scurrying around preparing for winter, the leaves crunching under my toes, the ducks squawking away hoping I would feed them, the snap of branches from the weight of landed birds, the caw of the crow. And I saw the brillance of the reds, yellows, browns, and greens present in the leaves, the bright green of the grass, the shiny white of the swans, the beauty of the surviving roses on the bushes. Life pared down to its simplest form is beautiful and fulfilling-truly what more could we need?
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