This has been an interesting last week in which I have struggled with feeling supported in my choice of mentality and in my future goals. However it was on my drive back to my home town yesterday that I realized that if I allow the lack of support or comments by others to question my definition of myself then a) i'm not being authentic and b) i'm living through external validation. Plus being the stubborn person I am, I always feel that when outside sources are trying to block you from being who you are or from following the lifestyle that you desire...well then you must actually be on the right path.
I don't expect everyone to agree with my thoughts, my dreams, or my actions (or rather at times my lack of actions). But what I can say is that I have never felt better about who I am, where I am going, or what I am doing with my life. I may hem and haw and change my mind about the steps within my life direction and at times I might voice my dismay about certain areas; however I would have to say that I am for once settled in myself. I know who I am, what I stand for, and the general type of person that I want to be. I know that I have never felt more content than in living this current lifestyle of simplicity that I have chosen. I know that my own internal validation and satisfaction means so much more than searching for validation from external sources (although positive support is appreciated!).
That said I have to admit that I love the blogging community for it's nice to be able to communicate with others who are so kind to share the wisdom, the mindfulness, and the mentality of a life so simplistically and carefully lived. It's nice to have a place I can communicate and read from and not feel as though my thoughts are so much stranger than others. It's nice to read about others who are truly living the life that I have set my sights on achieving.
Yet I also feel that I should add that I am most blessed by a wonderful family-one that supports me regardless of lifestyle or mentality choice AND by fabulous and steadfast friends that while we might be very different, they'll love me just the same. I feel very fortunate indeed to be surrounded by community on multiple levels, as I'm coming to realize more and more that our relationships really are what make life the most worth living. So thank you to those of you who love and support me just for being...well authentically me whether it was yesterday, today, or tomorrow......
I hope everyone has had a wonderful start to the weekend!
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